it’s far too expensive, she says
the gem glitters against the glass
maybe imagination, but it looks
like it casts these shards and shapes
lights and colors that i can’t see.
we can afford it, i assure her.
no, we can’t. let’s move on.
she does. i don’t.
the case open.
the one clerk stares at me
an air of menace?
maybe, maybe. first warning ignored.
but salvation comes in the hands
of a wannabe oklahoma valley girl
and her idiot savant boyfriend.
my fingers edge around the ring.
grasp.
pull.
i swipe two other pieces of jewelry
just for good measure.
to fuck the man.
to spit in the face of commerce.
to make my awkward claim as an anarchist
or something. but more just to pawn off, really.
i slide around the counter
slitherstep move around and step
quickly but not too quick
and pretend i’m looking at clothing.
these department stores are rife
with cameras and seeing eye dog guards
walk. walk. walk the floor
sir can i help you find something?
sir can i assist you?
no. no. i’m fine.
i’m fine. leave me alone. second warning ignored.
the sun is falling down behind the highway
and the air is stale and warm
halfway to the car and one of those voices
(sir can i help you find something?)
yells stop! stop!
keep going. keep walking. i am used to this.
get to the car. don’t look back.
she hesitates. i try to take her hand.
my other hand clutches two rings
and another worth the price of both.
stop! stop!
my face presses hard against the glass
the glare from the dipping sun
hurts my eyes.
but perhaps not as much as the wrench of my arms
behind my back.
i imagine the handcuffs are silver or chrome
and that they catch the sunlight like those rings
the two that lie underneath cars
scattered like fortune runes in the parking lot
she begins to sob.
i’m shoved forward and nearly trip over my feet.
the remaining ring is separated from my hand.
i didn’t count on this.
the guard was substantially bigger.
i could tell that it took no effort
to move my scrawny drugged out body.
shoved into a small room in the corner
of the store just waiting. waiting.
the guard dog camera watcher asks me questions
why are you stealing?
because i wanted this for her.
don’t you work?
i can’t find a job in this economy that pays well.
are you on drugs?
not at the moment.
but you have been on drugs?
in my life? yes.
fucking funny, smart ass.
thanks.
the guard dog talks to me about school.
a knock at the door and she’s outside.
she’s begging and still sobbing
the bigger guy walks out with her.
the skinnier one went to art school.
tough racket, he says. tough racket.
yeah, i wanted to be a writer.
that’s more or less the same, isn’t it?
more or less.
i need a picture from you before the cops come.
panic rises up in my throat.
we’ll be pressing full charges for theft.
i want to throw up on the table they sat me at.
you seem like a smart kid.
it’s a shame that you fucked yourself.
he gets out a camera and adjusts the lenses.
the brick wall guard dog comes back into the room.
i swear he has to walk sideways
to get through the door.
perhaps my over-indulged sense of bravado
sparks memory that he’s far far larger
than any man ought to be.
now smile. smile, says the skinny one.
he points the camera at me.
smile and say i’m going to jail.
i manage a weak one.
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